There are parts of my life that you will never know about. They are stories that are just mine, only to be shared to those closest to me. There are journeys that I have taken that only a couple people know about. There are demons that I fight that no one knows about. But it's part of my life, my journey, the person that I am today.
There are lessons in my life that I have learned from. There are lessons to still be learned. There are paths that have yet to be traveled. I look forward to them, no matter where they lead or what dangers they lead to.
But here's what I want you to know (particularly those who are determined to tear down the very fabric of what makes me me).
1 - I'm an amazing mom. I don't beat my children. My kids don't starve, the aren't filthy, and they are happy. No mom is perfect. We ALL break down, cry, scream, say things we regret, and wish we were better for our kids. I don't get drunk around my kids, do drugs around my kids, or leave my kids with anyone who does the previously mentioned. I'm always thinking of my kids and striving to make sure they have the best life possible. They are the most important thing in my life and why I work everyday to battle the mental illness I have. I'm not a perfect mother, but neither are you.
2 - What happens in this household is no business of yours. You have no right to go around publicizing what you think you know. And even if you do know, which you don't, what gives you the right to say anything to me about it. Do you live in this house? Are you part of this family? Do you have any say in what happens at all in this house? No. You don't. Through this whole process, I have not ONCE made anything I know about your lives public. I can. But I'm above airing other people's dirty laundry. Hopefully you can learn from my example.
3 - Yes, there are things and circumstances in my life that I wish I could change. I wish I was able to afford to put my kids in daycare, or live in my own house, and be able to pay for all my parents (in-laws included) to live anywhere they want worry free until they die. But since I'm paying the consequences for another woman's actions, that's not an option right now. Yes, I'm may complain and vent about my family, my friends, my husband, my kids, my hair, and how my second toe is longer than my big toe. BUT WHO THE HELL DOESN'T? Yes, I have a public forum that I use, but I have never used names, locations, or straight word-for-word situations. You are assuming all of that. My blog is about my life. All of my life. Not just the happy shiny moments, because that's not life. My blog is about the messy parts too.
4 - Consider this a fair warning. You know who you are. If you think I'm talking directly to you, I am. This is an official "leave me the hell alone" announcement. Any further contact from either of you will result in my pressing harassment charges. I will also be putting it in writing and have it delivered to you. This is the end of it. You have your opinions of me, and vice-versa. But this ends now. I am no longer going to allow you to have any affect on my life. Again, let me make this perfectly clear. Any further contact from either of the two women who have been harassing me will result in legal action, meaning I will press harassment charges. Done. The End.
For those of you who read my blog, understand what I am trying to do by making my life public, thank you. Thank you for continuing to read my blog and allowing me to give you some sort of courage. Yes, this sort of thing happens. It sucks. Stigmatism is everywhere, like I've said. But you can rise above it.
People will try every which way to tear you down. They will use Facebook, anonymous blog comments, and ever their own daughter to try and get you to break down and admit defeat. Don't let them. Trust what your heart tells you. Trust what your spouse tells you. Trust what your parents tell you. You are stronger than mental illness, so you are sure as hell stronger than whomever is trying to take your sparkle.
You are amazing. I am amazing. We are all amazing.
Deal with it.