Dear 2016...

Dear 2016 - 

We haven't even made it a full week into the year, so we don't know each other very well. We are still getting to know each other. It's scary, exciting, and overwhelming for both of us for sure.

While I know we are both busy with a million other things, I wanted to write to you to promise a few things to both of us. And there may be a request or two in there for you. 
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​I Promise to Not Get Worse

I'm still going to have bad days and moments where I want to just give up on life. I'm still going to struggle with absolutely everything. But I promise I won't back track. I promise I won't slip back down to where I was. I'll keep moving forward no matter what.
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I Promise to Spend More Time Focusing On Myself

I've spent a lot of the past year focusing on my job and my family. I've sacrificed a lot for both. I've lost a bit of the balance I had when I first started working again. And I know that happens. I'm not looking for perfection. But I know I've lost sight of myself. I've forgotten to focus on me as well as everything else. Whether that means going to the gym alone, spending more time with my girlfriends, getting back into blogging, or whatever, I promise I'll try to focus on me some more. 
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I Promise to Be More Open

I've kept a lot of things to myself from my family and friends. I've shut myself off from people again over the past few months as I've been struggling with more than my normal amount of crap. I've slid back into myself in an effort to spare myself pain and to keep those around me safe. But I know I need to open up again and let people in. I need to start speaking up more and not worry about what others will say or think. Those who really care about me won't care either way.
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In Return...

With those things in mind, can you do me a couple favors? 

Be Gentle

Because 2015 was rough on me. Lots happened. More is happening already. I'm still feeling the backlash from 2015. Let's ease into this together. Please don't beat me over the head with a brick any earlier than June. Let's be nice to each other.
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Move a Bit Slower

I have two kids, as you know. And damnit, they are growing up too fast. Skylar turns two next month. Are you for real?! Can we please try to slow down just an extra micro-second? That would help out more than you know. I need that extra hug. I need that extra kiss. I need that extra time. I've missed too much already. No more please. 

Above All, Let's Be Bad-Asses

Can we just agree to the fact that we will just be too awesome for everyone to handle this year? If we both hold up our end of this agreement, we shall be unstoppable. We shall be amazeballs. We shall be bad-asses.



Thanks in advance for an awesome year... unless it's not. Then I will gladly kick you're uncooperative butt right out the door in December. I'll love all over 2017 while you watch through a window while it rains on you. I'll hurt you so bad you wish I didn't hurt you so bad. 


Just sayin...


Love Always,

​Me.