As this post goes live, I will be heading out the door for my first day at a new job. I'll probably be having a panic attack too, but that's what the meds are for.
On Wednesday of last week, I accepted an Assistant Manager position with a national sub chain. For respect out of my new employer, I will not be sharing the name here. I'm hoping that I can keep (for the most part) work and this blog separate.
Kyle was laid off towards the end of February. When that happened, we had talked about the possibility of switching roles. I started looking at jobs in the area that might be a good fit. Last Tuesday, I went to an interview.
It was amazing. I felt really good about it. There were still some concerns I had though. After the interview, I was told that the job was mine if I wanted it. I told the owner that I would like a day to mull it over and chat with my husband.
Kyle and I talked. A lot. A whole bunch. And panic attacks were involved. I didn't want to be away from my kids. I've been a stay-at-home mom for over two years. It's what I know. It's what I've done. It's what I love (92% of the time at least). The thought of NOT being with my kids made me nauseous. I was worried that I was trying to take on too much. I was terrified that I was going to have another breakdown.
And those things still worry me. Even now, as I'm driving to work (that felt weird), I'm still thinking about all of that stuff. I'm not going to lie, I'll probably have to cry at one point.
But this is what we have decided to do. The pro's outweigh the con's, so here I go.
Kyle is being super supportive and understanding too. He's even promised to bring the kids to see me every day that I work if I need to see them. We've even talked about Skyping on our phones at bedtime so I can still "tuck" my kids in. Yup... he's THAT amazing to me.
Honestly, I'm not sure right now. I'm still super passionate about what I do. I love writing and sharing my story. It's therapeutic for me. And it's not something I want to give up completely. But for a while at least, there will be less posts and interaction while I try to figure out a balance between work, home, family, and this.
I promise I won't disappear. You can't get rid of me that easily. LOL. But be patient with me. I will figure out a new balance and it will be just as Maniac as the original, if not more so.
Wish me luck!