This weekend, the gaggle of horrid news knocked on my door.
Thursday - My dad was in a car crash with another family member. My dad has broken his scapula. Other than that, he's good. Including his golf clubs... which got a front seat ride to the ER in the ambulance. My dad is weird.
Friday - My last grandpa (Papa) had a heart attack. They found two blockages in his arteries, but were only able to remove one.
Saturday - My day off from bad news, and waiting for the third hit.
Sunday - I got a call from my mom. She drove to Missouri Saturday night after getting a call from her mom that Papa's kidneys were failing. While she was driving over, his heart stopped again. She's still with him now waiting for some sort of information.
After getting off the phone with my mom, I called my dad to tell him what was going on. Before I was able to tell him, my dad told me that the other family member from the car accident went into the ER last night for internal bleeding in the brain.
And there's #3.
Surprisingly, I'm not freaking out or going bat shit crazy. At least not right now. I think I'm more in shock of everything happening all at once. I've made pre-plans in the event that I have to leave here quickly to be with my mom in Missouri. My daddy, stepmom, and Memaw are flying in on Thursday and staying in town for the weekend.
And my wonderful husband is just fantastic. He's my rock right now. He hasn't freaked out either, and isn't acting like I'm going to fall apart at any given moment. He's letting me process and plan everything in my own time. He and his dad are even going to get my car ready in the event I need to drive over there. Yet another reason I know I picked a pretty perfect husband for myself.
I'm still getting my stuff done. I'm still going through my day with a smile on my face. But I don't feel like it's fake either. I feel like I'm waiting to break down until I need to. Until then, my life and the lives of the rest of my family continue to roll on. I still need to be there for them.
But i am super appreciative of all the support I'm getting from my friends and family. I may bitch about them sometimes (okay, a lot of times), but they really are the greatest. No one else could support me in the way they do when I really need it.
I can be a scary person sometimes. I know that. But so far, no one has up and left me. And they never will. I'm so thankful that I have such an amazing group of people, family and friends alike, surrounding me right now. Seriously, you guys rock my socks. Thank you.
Silver linings aren't hard to find when you know where to look. And it's usually right next to you in your friends and family.
Please send prayer, warm wishes, happy thoughts, and fairy dust in my family's direction. We are in desperate need of all the extra we can get. Thank you everyone. You are much loved in return.