I know not many moms get to have this opportunity. I didn't think I would, especially since funds are tight. I just happened to get very lucky at the right time. And for that I am very grateful.
I'm excited to go though. To be home.
I love Colorado. I love where I live and that I'm close to Kyle's family. I've spent most of my life in Colorado. But Washington has my heart. Whenever I get the chance to go back, I try to. There's just something about the Puget Sound area that just draws me in. It has since I first moved there.
I've been spending so much time focusing on my problems, on what needs fixing, how to help Chase not be so violent, making sure I spend enough one-on-one time with the kids, cleaning everything, spending time with my husband, and making sure my head hasn't rolled away. I've spent less and less time on myself in a positive way.
I need to reset my batteries. I need to have a weekend where I'm NOT a mom. Not because I don't want to be, but because I NEED to be. I need to spend some time on my own remembering why I love my life so much. I still love my life, but I still have trouble some (slowly becoming most) days.
I think all moms need help remembering that at least once in their lives. They need to just hit that reset button, take a moment to reboot, and then keep pushing forward. For some, it only takes a day, others an hour, some can even get away with five minutes. I wish I was one of those moms. But, a weekend should do the trick.
I hope a weekend should do the trick...
It better do the trick...
Or someone is going to have to fly me to the Bahamas for a week... ;-)